I don't think a tutorial is going to happen for this look. For one, it took a long time to do this and also, I never replaced my camera. I think that I have been slow in replacing the cam because YT has had this growing vibe of weird negativity. I am so, incredibly thankful for my awesome viewers who show their kindness and support and take the time to express that they liked the videos that I made. I always tried to address the comments and letters and just do my best in putting out something worthwhile. However, I have VERY thin skin and the number of racially charged comments and others such as comments that ridicule my weight, teeth, beauty marks and what have you get to me. I don't mean do devalue any of the wonderful things that my subs have written to me but open up some comments where someone calls me a spick or a wetback and it ruins my day.
My friend Josh is amazing. He just shrugs it off and I have tried but always seem to come up short. If someone is mean to me, says something hateful to me or even just shuns me, it bothers me to no end. I internalize everything to the point where it becomes disruptive so I just needed to step away for a bit.
So yeah, sorry for the emo soliloquy but I wanted to let you know where I am at in my head and give some kind of explanation as to my YT absence. I thank you though for being concerned about me and for missing my videos. That is so awesome. Thank you.
Now that Dashboard Confessional moment is over, I wrote out the breakdown for the Jackie Beat look. 
Monday, October 19, 2009
Break It Down for Jackie Beat
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Adore you, adore your makeup, adore you blog, adore your YT. For every 'hater' on your page...there are those who admire your work! ♥
Thanks for the detailed instructions! Maybe you could do videos here on blogger instead of on YT.
Just know that there are more people who appreciate you. :)
thank is soo clean and perfect!!
love it!!!
Thank you ladies and Nina, that is actually a really great idea. There is a site to host videos and you have the ability to embed them wherever. I am going to look into that. Thank you!
Jude, you are so beautiful it's almost sinful. Beautiful inside and out. I love your wit and charm (and of course makeup). You could post videos on Vimeo maybe and then put them up here. But I dunno exactly how vimeo works to be honest. *HUG*
It's unfortunate that we have people that are ignorant and close minded. There is beauty and Art in every culture and race and thanks for sharing a piece of yours with us. I enjoy your use of colors and your blending skills. I am inpsired when I watch you. Please don't let the foolish people of the world drag you down.
this halloween look is brilliant! funny and scary :)
You know, that's the main reason I left YT also, my skin was way too thin to deal with the abuse, and I didn't have half, or probably even a quarter of the subscribers you do - I know for a fact that the more subscribers you have, the more "haters" you have. I've never encountered anything like that in my life, and it's random, weird, and incredibly hurtful, for some reason.
You don't deserve it, at all - of course! You're an amazing artist, and a joy to watch.
I understand what you are talking about. Maybe you could do picture tutorials here on your blog. I for one really appreciate your talents and your generosity to share is AWESOME!
Thanks.
Also, this picture just screams WOW! Like if you forgot how tight I was let me remind you pictue. lol. I love it.
You are always so gorgeous! <3
Always love your looks :)
You are beautiful and those haters are probably just jealous!!!
Jude, you are one of the YTers that I love so much. I "sit @ your feet" to learn all that I can. I don't blame you for being hurt by the negativity. Somex we have to weigh things & make the best decision for ourselves. A friend of my from YT was deeply hurt by some pathetic person telling her she needed to be shot w/ a tranquilizer gun instead of posting makeup vids. Called her a monkey. SICK!
Some idiots get on YT to bash b/c they are immature. Who has that kind of time? I left YT for different reasons. I enjoy blogging. There's less maintanence (that's a great fit for me). You are beautiful inside & the out. We love your work. I hope you continue the blog. Sincerely,
Shahida
You know I'm a huge fan and I do miss your videos a lot but if they are going to get you upset it's not worth it. Find a venue (like some of those suggested) where you can screen membership better or someone can act as administrator and ban.
I do hope you realize (I'm sure you do) that a lot of these types of comments come from people whose main issue is to disturb and then get their thrills out of the fallout.
Flying tackle hugs Gabi
Exquisite. You are a true talent.
Holy crap! I am in absolute awe of how amazing this look is. I am a newcomer to your channel/blog and I didn't know what to expect..but wow, I give you massive amounts of kudos!
It's amazing to see some new looks from you! I am completely inspired by everything you do. I have one video of myself on YouTube as a zombie. One person said I look like there brother (I am a girl) and another said I look like a tranny. I'm like you and take it to heart and now feel manly and ugly all the time (not that their brother or transvestites are ugly). These were 2 comments out of maybe 8? I cant imagine what its like to hear all those cruel things people say. I completely understand why you dont want to make another video for a while. As important as it is to ignore the haters, its so hard and their rude, rude, words haunt you.
I think you are absolutely stunning and have an incredible amount of talent.
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